aun eto.. masaya aman... nakakatamad.. pero aus na aus tlaga.. pramis.. la ko pinagsisihan. update ko to maya..

ayan ng m,asiahan kau lahat.. ako ay nagbabalik.. galing sa libingang walanag hanggan..hahahaha

nagskuskul na kase ko ule.. kaya eto busibusihan..ahahahah sensya di ko masyado maupdate to.. di bale pag me time na ule.. buburaotin ko kau lahat..ahahaha

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

RAIN

solitude, what i fear

seems like nothing is clear

on a love, i thought thats dear

rain... break all this freaking chains

rain... dont leave me here in vain

rain... damn your love still remains

here comes the rain

and it falls down with the pain

im sorry, if i loved you

tho i try, not to be blue

the way, i feel for you

for i know, by heart, its true

its so hard to forgive

and so as to forget

reminiscing our past

on a love, i though could last

repeat refrain and chorus

drenched and drowning in tears

solitude, what i fear

reminsicing our past

on a love, i thought could last

reapeat refrain and chorus til fades

If there were no words…no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears…
No way to feel inside, I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
..You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life...I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love.. unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
La-ra-la-la

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need.. is you, my Valentine oh oh
You're all I need, my love.. my Valentine who-oh

(REMINDER: BASAHIN NG MGA PRENDSTER PEEPS NA TGA-STATES AT CANADA.. kilala nyo na sarili nyo mga ungases na shungaers pa!!)

ngaun nothing new happen.. it was just another ordinary day for me.. tamang soundtweep and all.. labas ng onte tambay sa bahay ng neborhood.. foods foods foods..

ngaun rame isyu ko gustong buksan.. kakasar nga..

first off, di me lam na nag-away pala parents me noong the 30th and di ko lam anything bout this matter.. kung di inopen up ng kapatid ko at nung insan ko nako huli na ko sa chismax.. actually, bihira as in often lng talaga sila mag-away.. nagulat lng kase ako kase hanggang ngaun di pa rin sila ngkikibuan.. at first kase kala ko la problema.. pero meron pala kaya pala lng kibuan blues between em.. alam nyo ang cause ng effect na eto, e di ang basahang damit.. babaw no.. ganun sila mag-away.. nagaaway on a simple matter.. pero pag pera o anything we need, di yan nag-aaway.. mistulang simbahan ngaun, in a negative way ang bahay.. nako sana magkabate na sila cuz i cant take silence.. nakakabingi.. i wanna do sumthing pero i dunno how to act em out.. ill just let time do em.. i believe they can work that out.. matatanda na sila.. tsk tsk ang hirap talaga magpalaki ng matatanda.. hayy buhay...

second off, isyung kinatutuwa ko and i never shared wit anyone pero im ready to tell em ol out dto sa blog cuz due to public and my neborhood demand, na singol na ule me.. wahahaha mabuhay ako.. i ended a relationship na ayaw ko.. hahaha at first i was afraid to tell that i dont wanna continue that shit out.. pewo wit the help of my neborshood, ayun success.. la na kong asungot.. u know why i wanna end that one, kase im fallin for somebody new.. someone na talagang nahuli ang mga kiliti ko and all, the one that makes me laugh at sa lahat lahat na naging sya.. basta mhal ko sya dahil sya ay sya at indi sya katulad nung isa na kaburaot..hahaha basta ill tell everything when im in the mood to tell it.. not at this moment cuz shes healing pa..hahaha kelangan pay respect for that..hahaha tangna bat ang saya ko..haha

third off, ang insomniac isyu ko.. tangina.. lang araw na kong mulat at nagbabantay ng oras.. di ko na nga alam ang petsa, di pa ko makatulog ng me katinuan.. pag tinanong mo ko sa umaga, bangengeng sagot ang marereciv mo so dont ever ask pag di me nakatulog.. hyper din me pag ganto, foodtweep, tangan iniiwasan ko nga kahet ganto takbo pag-iisp ko parang sabog..hahahha

last for the meantime, ang isyung di ko nareplayan mga katetx ko sa states, canada, australia at france.. di na gumana ung marathon sa touchmob texting.. langya.. kakahiya talaga.. bute na lng natext ko pala ang mga prendser dudes kong sina sephorat, pakwanin at moncietot.. nakakamiss din pala si fafa fiolo.. nako nagpabeso beso me na lng kanina ke kuya seph para ke tomas morato.. pinasabe ko rin kanina ke klarisse un..hahaha mimiss ko na clang lahat na kagagauhan ko ng mga gantong oras.. waah.. nako tomas morato kung nababasa mo to, ung jeept ko.. leche ka.. kahet ung helmet ng football uniform mo pede na, o kahit ung mismong ung uniform.. for sure thatll fot me kase payat ka naman, masculados naman ako..harharhar tangna miss na kita morato, pate na rin cna chelle at pakwanin my labs.. psst pakwanin, ung cd, suprise na lng kung no laman nun... isa sa mga x-rated shots ko un so treasure that huh.. minsan ka lng makakita ng papausbong na boldstar ala viva hotmen..hahahha lam kong pinagnanasaan u me matagal na so ayan, ibibgay em na sau..hahaha tsaka kinalat me na pala ung pirated kong mga copies nyan so guys, secure your personal copy.. ull enjoy it.. sa mobiles din meron na..hahaha im not joking... this is not a hoax mga parekoy..ahhaha at KK ko pala moncietot at kuya sephorat.. eto kiss ko mwah mwah mwah... hahaha

ayan nakagawa ako tuloy ng di oras ng open letter.. sana mabasa to ng mga tukmol... dyan muna sakit na ng magaganda kong mata.. dodonate ko pa naman tong damaged kong mata pag natsuge na ko..hhahahaha

eto continuation nangyare sakin kagabe.. memorable sakin ang pag-open ng 2005 sa life me.. tho i know kakaburaot na naman tong taon for me..hahah

ayun na nga nagsimba na kame... nakisakaya kame sa oto ng neborhood namen papunta sa simbahan... 8 ata kame.. dun kame sa left wing ng simbahan ung covered space near the parish office.. we stayed there na nahihilo cuz of the incense pate na rin ung nakakapraning na paputok.. tama bang magsindi ng batibot at 5 star near the church kungdi ba naman gago un..haha actually ung kagabe ko palang pagsimba e ang pang 6th na simba ko for the year 2004..hahaha minsan lng talaga magsimba ang mga pagan na katulad me.. then communion came right after aproximately 57 minutes of hearing the priest do his blah blahs... nakita ko lng isa sa simbahan si diana cano.. clasmate me elem.. matangkad na sya infurnce not just like before na punggokin..hahaha sakay kame ule ng van papunta sa subdi namen.. tas un sinundo ung isang neborhood.. then uwe.. nagnet ule til 11.. me nakausap sa phone, sa mobile din at sandamakmak na text na kaagaaga ka e nagspaspam sa mob ko.. tangna..hahaha

alas 12 na kaya nagtalunan at nagsisisgawan kame na parang mga sira ng aking mga kapatod at insan.. la kame paputok pero ok lng.. maganda ang view sa taas.. mas maganda pa manuod dun kesa gumasta pa kame for that foolish stufs.. kain ng media noche.. konti lng handa namen.. kala me bek mac ung naluto, spageti na elbows lng pala.. tas me nareciv pa kame sa kapitbahay na arroz valenciana tsaka uhmm spag na pasta ang gmet.. sana fetucini na lng.. kakamiss fazolis.. hahaha tas ung nagluto din pala si ma ng kakanin, uhmmm meron kame tacos and nacho chips wit sarsa and stuffs.. nu pa ba.. me ginataan pa pala.. langya media noche, merienda.. harhar tas meron pang jello.. uhmm siomai.. how wud i forget those evil fat-thingys..haha then nood ng tv.. subaybay syempre sa ayala at sa the fort, di sa baywalk.. duh! d ako kanguso..harhar then jugjugan abit.. nag-FM na lng kase sawa na me sa mga pinapatugtog namen dito sa bahay.. stereotypically mu na maririrnig mga spongecola at kung anu anu pang mga kadramahan sa buhay na mga tugtugin.. ala masyadong  novelty songs.. ay me chupeta pala..haha tas un kain kain.. text text.. sikreto na lng kung sino sino sila kase di ko naman papakilala mga kakilala me dito na kelangan na me confidentialy..hahaha then un naligo, no not ligo actually, takot ako sa tubig kaya un, wisik wisik is the term... nag-ayos ule ng onte pumunta sa me bahay ng neborhood na naman para tapusin ang isa sa mga ayoko ng gagawing bisyo this 2005, ang maging isang manginginom..harhar kase tutuloy tuloy me this year na ung paggygym ko.. kaya sinama ko sa new yrs resolution me.. toma kame ng mga kasama ko kanina sa simbahan.. naglabasan ng mga gustong sabihin na prob sa buhay and syempre resolutions..ahha til 6am.. nag-iced empi lng kame at ang gumugurang na ako ang may treat kase ewan ko ba nauto ako ni zy..haha tas un nagbike paguwe.. then tulog ng konte.. telebabad sa mobile kase ngaun na expiration ng 24/7 ko..haha then un tulog ule.. gising ng 12 in the afternoon.. nakikain sa tita ko ng lunch.. msarap infurnace ung club sandwich na waffle style ha..hahaha pate na rin moron ba tawag dun.. ung parang embutido.. watever.. masarap sya.. kaso kakataba kaya konte lng kinain ko.. me caldereta rin at uhmm anu pa ba mac sal.. i hate that desert.. the inom ng mango puree then nood mtb ang saya saya.. tas uwe right after to check my email at mga tamabayan ko sa net.. at sumulat na rin neto..hahaha dapata pala aalis me to meet somebody sa me shangrila.. pero im not in the mood ewan ko kung bakt.. kaya tinext ko sya na well meet by monday or tuesday na lng.. pera rin un kaya lng inurungan me muna ngaun kase la talaga me sa mood.. ahhaha

yan lng ang nu year ko.. dagdagan me ule mamayang gabe.. diz aint over yet di pa gabe baka me mangyare pang maganda... iwan ko muna ang isa na namang pangsenti na tugtog na trip ko ngaun.. sentisentihan muna me ngaun tama na muna ang rakrakan ng buahy at mga jugjugan.. nagsawa na me nyan kagabe sa tomahan sa pes tres..hahaha

sensya yaw ko muna mag emo emohan new year.. i need to face this year wit a smile to its hard for me.. marame pang oras.. ill tell it some other time..hehehe

heres the song i wanna shre wit you guys.. poppish sya, tigil rakrakan for awhle at pate na rin jugjugan..ahhaha

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star

...sud ol akwentans b porgat
in neber bot to mayn
sud ol akwentans b porgot
in ol lang sayn....

ngaun ay the 31st ang huling araw ng taon.. goodness ang bilis ng panahaon.. di ko napansin papaalis na 2004 papasok na naman ang bagong taon.. hayyy.. another year, another life, another being?? hahaha di naman cguro.. ill just enjoy the comin year ahead.. ill try my luck to make this year different from 2004... to recount what had happend, itll took me foreevr cguro to jot em all down... uhmmm a summary na lng cguro, ung mga inmportant things that changed me or somewhat struck my sanity..harharhar e pano ba yan tinatamad ako... sorry na lng.. harharhar all i know is naging mabaet naman saken ang taon na ito, kahet papano.. d ko nga lang naramadaman ng todo todo just like what i expected the day before mag-2004... cge maging pesimist, la naman masama if u think positive aighttt..hahahha

uhmmm 6 hours away and the yar 2005 is here to come.. prepared na ba ko mamaya.. ay indi pa.. hahaha maya maya magsisimba na kame ng aking butihing mga neborhud.. antayin ko na lng sila dumating.. tsaka pagdatying me magluluto na me bek mak ule.. adik mga kaposa ko dito dun e so pagbigyan ang wisyong pagkain nila..harharhar foods foods foods na naman mamaya.. paksyet naman nakapag-warm up na katawan me for tomorow na lakad.. its a biz deal.. hakhakhak lam na ninyo un..harhar la ko pera so i need to do that.. hurhurhur eto an lng wento ko nangyare sakin ngaun para makabawe sa mga araw na di ko nagawan ng daily updates..

uhmmm kanina pala di me nakatulog kakaburaot kase.. di ko lam.. nagnet lang me kaninang madaling araw, nakita ko sina winnietot, moncietot, briantot kanina online mga 4 ba o earlier di ko napansin time e.. mukang tinatamad din sila katulad em kanina.. nagbalak nga me kanina gumawa ng testi sa aking mga pwends and newly found ones.. kaso la naman me maisip, kinakain na kase ng sikmura ko ng gastric juice kaya nawala em sa mood to type on.. so by 6pm kanina, i went to my bed, chrged my mob up and binuksan me narin un.. nakaoff all night mob ko kase nga busy ako sa computer naghehentai.. jowk harhar then un got plenty of texts from my pwends, ganun din mga voicemail entrees... hayyyy nagpaparamdam c ano sakin ule.. naburaot me more cuz of that... then di me napansin nkatulog ata me by 730am.. trying to forget what ive read and heard from my mob.. then nagising me by 11 or almost 12 na rin ata nun.. dame kong di nasagot na cols, so i phoned everyone sa aking call lists.. yan low batt na naman nga ngaun mob ko e.. then after an hour i guess na pakikipagusap, at di pa ko nakapagmumug that time, nakahga pa ren me nun, naisipang ko na to go downstairs kase nagbubulyawan na sa baba na bumangon na daw ako.. so un.. naglunch ng bistek... picked the bobong book (BAKIT BALIkTAD MAGBASA NG LIBRO ANG MGA PILIPINO).. tinapos me na.. kase hiniram ko lng un at di pa tapos basahin ng neborhood kong si zy un... gawa ako ng isa pang thread mamaya neto dito, parang review kumbaga.. hiwalay ko para masaya... actually binasa ko lng sya for 6.5 hours or less... kapagod din..harhar tas yan nagsountweep para mapawe yung pagod.. then nagexercise para mamaya ready sa chibugan.. kakainin na naman ako ng mga food foods foods so i need to do that para preperd body ko..hahaha ngaun 6, eto na me nagtytype ng last entree for the year.. dadamihan ko para masaya..ahahhaha yan muna.. liligo na me.. 630 na magkikita kame by 730 ng twopa.. balik me mamaya for more updates.. harhaar

....sud ol akwentans b porgat
in neber bot to mayn
sud ol akwentans b porgot
in ol lang sayn....

 

taylen nay
ole nay
ol is cam
ol is bry
we wissu a mer kisma
ne api nu yir

hahaha kakatuwa christmas me tho its a bit u know, taghirap.. la kame pera but were happy... gee, pag me pera lng ba pede maging masaya sa pasko..hahahah well i enjoy it much.. dame kong gusto iwento.. wahahha pero konti konti lng.. ngaun lng kase ule me nakaonline..

simulan ko nung december 24 ng umaga... that day, i met new friends thru net.. gees bute na lng suncell users din cla kagaya ko kaya we tlaked and talked hanggang maubusan ako ng laway... ganun din daliri me, napudpod as in pudpod kagaya ng keypad ko kaya nakabili ako ng di oras ng bagong keypad... ang mura lam pala nun kala ko 100 plus ung keypad na un.. hahaha then chineck ko ang aking voizmel.. ininggit si jeng and all.. sus mas maganda pa rin boses ko kesa sa voismel greeting ni jeng na bright lights.. duh talaga..harharhar then nagprepare na for the night.. ung pagkain for the noche buena.. ako nagprepare sa baked mac pate na rin sa graham cake na pinagtulungan namen ng tatay ko.. bute naman nakakain pa rin itchura.. mukang di cake nga eh, mukang kaningbaboy na binaboy... pero in furnace masarap pagkakaprepare namen ng tatay ko ha.. thats wit the aid of my mom kaya naging ferpect paren ang graham.. then nood ng mga films right after.. we watched first daughter wit my cousins and my siblings.. well the film is kool.. ganda ni katie holmes kakapraning kagandahan nya...harhar ung patner nyang si mark blukas ba un ok din.. bagay sila in all.. the story well all i can say is somewat related sa isa pang film na chasing liberty ni mandemuure.. hate mandeemure..hahahaha the other night pala we watched scary movie.. tangna napaparaning ako kaya un pinanood me that time wit my kapatid.. kahit lang beses namen panuorin k lng kase me slatik pelikula just like me..hahaha

then the night came.. i prepare myself naman for the last simba nung gabing un.. sinundo ako ng mga neborhood ko to attend the mass.. syempre todo getup na panlamig ako.. ako pa pag pashion e laging ngarag no.. di ako pauso.. simpleng tshrt na fit at jogging pants ang pansimba ko.. para lang mamamalengke..ahhaha then after the mass, we went to somebody elses place para sunduin ang iba pang repapips to join us in our mini-inuman sa bubungan ng kapitbahay ng prend namen.. walkathon kame pag uwe after 2 hours.. 1 hour na lng nun e noche buena na so umuwe na ko bahay.. punta sa bahay ligo ule kahit na subwang lamig talaga.. after ligo, i went to my lola's house cuz thats where we held our xmas ek ek.. so i stayed there til 130am i guess.. kain, nuod, then jammign sa labas.. video video, pectur pectur.. then nagtamabay sa labas ng bahay soundtwep wit my cousins.. kanta kanta ng lunes, your love, pain in my heart, jeepney, neon, partisan at iba pang mapagtripan nameng ibulahaw sa kapitbahay namen.. and btw ang handa pala e bbq, spag, pancit, bek mac ko, greham kek ko na di ko natikman, salad op cors.. unlngg.. tas namigay ng sobre.. ahaha then dali dali ule balik sa bahay magpalit ng shirt punta naman sa mini-inuman namen sa phase 3.. actually nakatira me sa phase 2, walkin distance lang., mga 500 steps or less.. thwn un angkita kita ang mga pwends ng neborhood.. tomahan til malasing.. then uwe sa bahay afterwards, senglot na senglot.. nasalubong ko pa sina ely na galing din sa tomahan nila sa me counteran.. pasuray suray akong umuwe... natulog til 8.. bangon agad at nagpahinga thru panunuod instead matulog.. wasted na wasted tlaga me.. pero ok lng kase naririnig ko ung crazy for you  ng spongecola.. hayy nakakapraning pasko ko dahil sa wested ako.. putangna mga neighbor at booze at that time...

sa susunod ko na ung kadugtong ha.. ang haba na masyado.. iwan ko na lng ung peborit music ko today.. eto ung crazy for you.. spandskola verson ha.. hahahah

Crazy For You - Spongecola

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers amking the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you thru the smoky air
Can u feel the weight of my stare
Youre so close but still a world away
What im dying to say is that im

Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
im crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Two by two we dont need words at all

Slowly now as we begin to move
Every breath im deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
But if you read my mind you see im

Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
i feel it in your kiss because im
Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
im crazy for you

when you know its true you know im crazy for you
when its all brand new you know im crazy for you
when you know its true im crazy crazy for you
im crazy for.. you..

hayyyyyyyyyyyy.. namiss ko magpost sa inaamag at inuuuod kong blog.. ina naman kase busy sa skul, sa bahay sa lablyp na mukang nagkakalabuan na.. natatamad na rin ako... hayyyy buhay.. talaga...

ngaung maghapon magigigng busy me sa pwaktis ng banda namen.. kae tomorow tutugtug kame sa xmas party ng yfc... kakapagod to for sure at tangna di pa ko nakakavocalize.. gudlack samen bukas talaga.. kakaasar.. pero ill enjoy it na naman kase me jifts kme after..hehehhe

kahapon pala EB ng prendster sa mega... nako sandamakmak na wentuhan ang naganap at pag-iingay... di na maiiwasan un sa mga tao, lalo na ke jeng na ginagawang hobby ang pag-iingay..hakhahakha kahapon puro tawanan kahet wawalo lang kame.. tama ba kaseng magdrawing na lng ng magdrawing ang iba.. umuoo na den tas ganun babackout last minute.. ina nila.. ahahahah basta ako enjoy kahet konti... hahaha nandun pala sina ate she, jeng, mikki, iceman, punisher, raffy luchi..hahhha yan lng ang me attendance.. ung sa iba.. fuckshit este paksyet kayo..hahahha alam nyo na kung sino kayo.. hahahahahaah

marame nangyare saken.. ero nitatamad ako magtype talaga.. next time pwamis tataype ko lahat ung importatnte nangyare sakin... di pa kase ao depress ngaun e.. i feel like writing it pag ala ko sa ood.. e masaya ako today kaya yan, la ko mood magtype.. me pwaktis pa ko.. cge next time na lng... ingats