...sud ol akwentans b porgat
in neber bot to mayn
sud ol akwentans b porgot
in ol lang sayn....

ngaun ay the 31st ang huling araw ng taon.. goodness ang bilis ng panahaon.. di ko napansin papaalis na 2004 papasok na naman ang bagong taon.. hayyy.. another year, another life, another being?? hahaha di naman cguro.. ill just enjoy the comin year ahead.. ill try my luck to make this year different from 2004... to recount what had happend, itll took me foreevr cguro to jot em all down... uhmmm a summary na lng cguro, ung mga inmportant things that changed me or somewhat struck my sanity..harharhar e pano ba yan tinatamad ako... sorry na lng.. harharhar all i know is naging mabaet naman saken ang taon na ito, kahet papano.. d ko nga lang naramadaman ng todo todo just like what i expected the day before mag-2004... cge maging pesimist, la naman masama if u think positive aighttt..hahahha

uhmmm 6 hours away and the yar 2005 is here to come.. prepared na ba ko mamaya.. ay indi pa.. hahaha maya maya magsisimba na kame ng aking butihing mga neborhud.. antayin ko na lng sila dumating.. tsaka pagdatying me magluluto na me bek mak ule.. adik mga kaposa ko dito dun e so pagbigyan ang wisyong pagkain nila..harharhar foods foods foods na naman mamaya.. paksyet naman nakapag-warm up na katawan me for tomorow na lakad.. its a biz deal.. hakhakhak lam na ninyo un..harhar la ko pera so i need to do that.. hurhurhur eto an lng wento ko nangyare sakin ngaun para makabawe sa mga araw na di ko nagawan ng daily updates..

uhmmm kanina pala di me nakatulog kakaburaot kase.. di ko lam.. nagnet lang me kaninang madaling araw, nakita ko sina winnietot, moncietot, briantot kanina online mga 4 ba o earlier di ko napansin time e.. mukang tinatamad din sila katulad em kanina.. nagbalak nga me kanina gumawa ng testi sa aking mga pwends and newly found ones.. kaso la naman me maisip, kinakain na kase ng sikmura ko ng gastric juice kaya nawala em sa mood to type on.. so by 6pm kanina, i went to my bed, chrged my mob up and binuksan me narin un.. nakaoff all night mob ko kase nga busy ako sa computer naghehentai.. jowk harhar then un got plenty of texts from my pwends, ganun din mga voicemail entrees... hayyyy nagpaparamdam c ano sakin ule.. naburaot me more cuz of that... then di me napansin nkatulog ata me by 730am.. trying to forget what ive read and heard from my mob.. then nagising me by 11 or almost 12 na rin ata nun.. dame kong di nasagot na cols, so i phoned everyone sa aking call lists.. yan low batt na naman nga ngaun mob ko e.. then after an hour i guess na pakikipagusap, at di pa ko nakapagmumug that time, nakahga pa ren me nun, naisipang ko na to go downstairs kase nagbubulyawan na sa baba na bumangon na daw ako.. so un.. naglunch ng bistek... picked the bobong book (BAKIT BALIkTAD MAGBASA NG LIBRO ANG MGA PILIPINO).. tinapos me na.. kase hiniram ko lng un at di pa tapos basahin ng neborhood kong si zy un... gawa ako ng isa pang thread mamaya neto dito, parang review kumbaga.. hiwalay ko para masaya... actually binasa ko lng sya for 6.5 hours or less... kapagod din..harhar tas yan nagsountweep para mapawe yung pagod.. then nagexercise para mamaya ready sa chibugan.. kakainin na naman ako ng mga food foods foods so i need to do that para preperd body ko..hahaha ngaun 6, eto na me nagtytype ng last entree for the year.. dadamihan ko para masaya..ahahhaha yan muna.. liligo na me.. 630 na magkikita kame by 730 ng twopa.. balik me mamaya for more updates.. harhaar

....sud ol akwentans b porgat
in neber bot to mayn
sud ol akwentans b porgot
in ol lang sayn....

taylen nay
ole nay
ol is cam
ol is bry
we wissu a mer kisma
ne api nu yir

hahaha kakatuwa christmas me tho its a bit u know, taghirap.. la kame pera but were happy... gee, pag me pera lng ba pede maging masaya sa pasko..hahahah well i enjoy it much.. dame kong gusto iwento.. wahahha pero konti konti lng.. ngaun lng kase ule me nakaonline..

simulan ko nung december 24 ng umaga... that day, i met new friends thru net.. gees bute na lng suncell users din cla kagaya ko kaya we tlaked and talked hanggang maubusan ako ng laway... ganun din daliri me, napudpod as in pudpod kagaya ng keypad ko kaya nakabili ako ng di oras ng bagong keypad... ang mura lam pala nun kala ko 100 plus ung keypad na un.. hahaha then chineck ko ang aking voizmel.. ininggit si jeng and all.. sus mas maganda pa rin boses ko kesa sa voismel greeting ni jeng na bright lights.. duh talaga..harharhar then nagprepare na for the night.. ung pagkain for the noche buena.. ako nagprepare sa baked mac pate na rin sa graham cake na pinagtulungan namen ng tatay ko.. bute naman nakakain pa rin itchura.. mukang di cake nga eh, mukang kaningbaboy na binaboy... pero in furnace masarap pagkakaprepare namen ng tatay ko ha.. thats wit the aid of my mom kaya naging ferpect paren ang graham.. then nood ng mga films right after.. we watched first daughter wit my cousins and my siblings.. well the film is kool.. ganda ni katie holmes kakapraning kagandahan nya...harhar ung patner nyang si mark blukas ba un ok din.. bagay sila in all.. the story well all i can say is somewat related sa isa pang film na chasing liberty ni mandemuure.. hate mandeemure..hahahaha the other night pala we watched scary movie.. tangna napaparaning ako kaya un pinanood me that time wit my kapatid.. kahit lang beses namen panuorin k lng kase me slatik pelikula just like me..hahaha

then the night came.. i prepare myself naman for the last simba nung gabing un.. sinundo ako ng mga neborhood ko to attend the mass.. syempre todo getup na panlamig ako.. ako pa pag pashion e laging ngarag no.. di ako pauso.. simpleng tshrt na fit at jogging pants ang pansimba ko.. para lang mamamalengke..ahhaha then after the mass, we went to somebody elses place para sunduin ang iba pang repapips to join us in our mini-inuman sa bubungan ng kapitbahay ng prend namen.. walkathon kame pag uwe after 2 hours.. 1 hour na lng nun e noche buena na so umuwe na ko bahay.. punta sa bahay ligo ule kahit na subwang lamig talaga.. after ligo, i went to my lola's house cuz thats where we held our xmas ek ek.. so i stayed there til 130am i guess.. kain, nuod, then jammign sa labas.. video video, pectur pectur.. then nagtamabay sa labas ng bahay soundtwep wit my cousins.. kanta kanta ng lunes, your love, pain in my heart, jeepney, neon, partisan at iba pang mapagtripan nameng ibulahaw sa kapitbahay namen.. and btw ang handa pala e bbq, spag, pancit, bek mac ko, greham kek ko na di ko natikman, salad op cors.. unlngg.. tas namigay ng sobre.. ahaha then dali dali ule balik sa bahay magpalit ng shirt punta naman sa mini-inuman namen sa phase 3.. actually nakatira me sa phase 2, walkin distance lang., mga 500 steps or less.. thwn un angkita kita ang mga pwends ng neborhood.. tomahan til malasing.. then uwe sa bahay afterwards, senglot na senglot.. nasalubong ko pa sina ely na galing din sa tomahan nila sa me counteran.. pasuray suray akong umuwe... natulog til 8.. bangon agad at nagpahinga thru panunuod instead matulog.. wasted na wasted tlaga me.. pero ok lng kase naririnig ko ung crazy for you  ng spongecola.. hayy nakakapraning pasko ko dahil sa wested ako.. putangna mga neighbor at booze at that time...

sa susunod ko na ung kadugtong ha.. ang haba na masyado.. iwan ko na lng ung peborit music ko today.. eto ung crazy for you.. spandskola verson ha.. hahahah

Crazy For You - Spongecola

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers amking the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you thru the smoky air
Can u feel the weight of my stare
Youre so close but still a world away
What im dying to say is that im

Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
im crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Two by two we dont need words at all

Slowly now as we begin to move
Every breath im deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
But if you read my mind you see im

Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
i feel it in your kiss because im
Crazy for you
touch me once and you know its true
i never wanted anyone like this
its all brand new
i feel it in your kiss
im crazy for you

when you know its true you know im crazy for you
when its all brand new you know im crazy for you
when you know its true im crazy crazy for you
im crazy for.. you..

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"As Lovers Go"

she said "i've gotta be honest,
you're wasteing your time if you're fishing round here."
and i said "you must be mistaken,
cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real"
she said...she said "you gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?
"No, you've got wits, you've got looks,
you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

and i said "i've gotta be honest
i've been waiting for you all my life."
for so long i thought i was asylum bound,
but just seeing you makes me think twice.
and being with you here makes me sane,
i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

tonight.
tonight.
but you've got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

dont call me in the middle of the night no more dont expect me to be there dont think that its gonna be the way just like before im not over you yet and i dont wanna be your friend

if ending this freindship s the only way to forget you, ill do it.. but still u keep on havin this gap wit me... ngaun realizing na kelangan mo pa rin ako, yea as a friend, sum1 whom u can say ur problems about him, say those feelings na di mo pa sa kanaya nasasabit napapakita, say those cheesy stuffs, but yet eto si tanaga, ok lng sa kunware pero deep inside, it hurts ..pero lam mo, kahit anong pagatatago ko pa rin ngaun... it just keeping me insane... d talaga mawala sa isip ko the way we parted and say those heartbreaking goobye.. it still rings my bell.. it knocks my heart out everytime that voice im hearing from my mind bumps my sanity... ewan ko na talaga.. baliw pa rin ako sa yo.. pero mali to... yaw ko na... i dont wanna be your friend no more...

sana matapos na tong parte ng buhay ko na to, ang moment na nakilala kita, natutunan kitang kilalanain, mahalin ka... at iwan ako... i cant bear this anymore... theres nothin more i can do but cry this shit out... sana tulungan mo rin akong limutin ka, mawala ka ni segundo man ng oras ko... by simply forgetting me... by simply not havin this conection again... sana...

i spread my wings and i learn how to fly ill do what it takes til i touch the sky ill make a wish take a chance make a change and breakaway.... out of the darkness and into the sun but i wont forget all the ones that i loved got to take a risk take a chance make a change and breakaway......

November 11, 2004 1650hr, friday

Dear J.T.,

hey hi hello how are you hope ur fine thank u.. now im out of words.. im confused and a bit hurt on what had happened just awhle ago when we both woke up in the early cold dawn, only of us two, me huggin u, u not feelin the way i caress you..

the time you shared that something thats bugging you the whole past week, i just can brely handle that shits youvehad.. im happy that u all surpassed it, well i know theres a lot more to come, but you still fight on, just for the sake of ur family and everyone you cared about.. see, i cant really imagine that shits over me.. if i were in your case, i would have thought to get a grip and you know end that up... im really glad that you won that and now u got that precious stuffs youre having right now... and yea, youre such a loser, a BIGTIME loser that is... (hey dont take it literelly, u know what i mean.. hehe) youre a loser in finding the right guy for yea.. the one who can satisfy the hunger of unconditional love youve beeen telling me since the time we met... cant forget everything u did.. u make me happy and so u to me.. and im happy we became lovers tho it lasted that fast... that fast that i dont see it comin that u are liking somebody else.. someone you think that really are meant to you... the one youve been wanting to have.. the one that would not be me... its sad... yea... the moment you said goodbye, that very moment you told me youre liking somebody else, it ddnt matter to me, i dont gave any damn at that moment.. so i let you have him cuz i know, youre only wanting him, liking him.... then i look for somebody else... so we became lovers too.. but you know, i cant still forget the closure we had, the time i spooned(well not sexually, skin contact that would be the word) over your warm body, u smelling great and all... everytime im wit my new one, i cant still forget how you throw tantrums, the way you say i love you, pangungulit mo, lahat... i told myself to move on.. yea i dd it in a day or two... but you know... the time we talked last night, ala lng.. masaya lang ako.. youre so true and all.. honest.. kaya nagustuhan kita.. youre loyal to the one you love... napatunayan ko yan nung naging tayo... and the time you told me bout that bernard... nung katabe kita, naiisip ko kagabe nung the time we first met... tlagang so memorable that it cant erase on my mind... you wearin that smile, me sending replys, sitting on a couch talking giberish stuffs... lahat lahat ng nakikita ko ngaun e ikaw pa ren..

then nag-umaga na, me lying beside you in bed, havin that fiery contact but you dont show any at all, i just realized alot of things... new things ive learned form u.. things that i can say na wud turn some other lives kapag narinig kuz thats somewhat inspirational ang dating... first off, i realized na youre really a true person, a loyal one, a caring and u share everything, even your own life to the one you love... nakita ko yan nung di ka nagrespnse sa pagspoon ko, no skin contact that is... i kept on huggin u and i felt nuthin talaga at all... talagang mahal mo sya... ala na kong puwang sa yo, isa na lng akong kebigan mo.. kebigang totoo.. secondly, i realized na inspite of all the struggles, nakayanan mo pa lahat un, kahit sariling dugo mo at pawis, pinagpaguran mo talaga ang lahat ng meron ka... isa kang tunay na kapatid, kaibigan, kapamilya... ala na kong masasabi sa lahat ng sacrifices na nagawa mo sa pamilya mo.. i salute ya for that... and lastly, and pinakamasakit and pinakamasayang realization ko, na talaga namang napaiyak ako kanina, pagakabangon mo, leavin me behind, pinipigil ko lng luha ko, ang realization na nagpagising sa akin, NA MAHAL KITA, MAHAL PA RIN KITA... kahit nung once na ideniny ko ung feelings ko nung makita mo si bernard ok lng... narealized ko AGAIN and AGAIN na masakit maglet go sa taong mahal mo... taong nagpapasaya sa malulungkot mong oras, taong nandyan sa u, pag madilim ang mundo, taong uunawa sa yo kahit na mali ka, sige pa rin, taong nagmamahal at nagaalaga sa u more than a friend cud do... masakit.. talagang masakit.. di ko kinaya.. iniyak ko lng sa cr un... d mo lng napansin namugto ako.. im trying to keep out of my system ang thought na mahal pa kita so i can fly, pero di ko nagawa sucesfully, and i denied it... so i came up sa conclusion kanina as we took the lift, to thank u, thank u for all the things uve shared nung tayo pa lahat... lahat na sinacrifice mo sakin.. lahat ng mabubuting bagay at mga memories na i could keep forever.. then i embraced you... i went home... textd u... telling u I LOVE U, as a dear friend... ill sacrifice the frendship we had, para lng mas lalong magrow kau.. ill try to heal this pain, eventually malilimutan ko rin to... i promised myself to have this gap para lng sa inyo... im so happy na nahanap mo na sya... nung sinabe mo pang u ddnt find him, he just came... i agreed... so ill have this distance... i gave up... rejecting all the feelings, emotions ko and all... IM SETTING YOU FREE, FOR THE ONE YOU REALLY LOVE, CUZ I LOVE U MUCH MORE THAN YOULL EVER KNOW,

I LOVE U....GOODBYE................

~ pOcH ~

complete the sentence dw naiinitan ako pag.. ~~ me katabi akong mabango at seksi

masarap kumain ng hamburger kapag.. ~~ nakahubad kasama si jo hahahhaha jowk

masarap pumorma kapag... ~~ hiram ang mga damit... w/c i always do...hahaha

ayos mag-camping kapag.. ~~ magulo ang poagkakaorganize... para magulo rin ang tao..ahhahaha

hindi ako nahihiyang mag-perform kapag.. ~~ nakabukas ang ilaw

ok magka-lagnat pag.. ~~ kasama ko mahal ko

masarap makinig sa teacher kung.. ~~ malaki ano... ahahaha

boring ang klase pag.. ~~ bord ako

nagkakaroon ka ng reason para mag-smile t'wing umaga dahil.. ~~ naiisip ko si sikret

ang sarap matulog pag.. ~~ kayakap ko si jo

masarap makipag-usap sa phone kung.. ~~ me phone sex ryt sfter,,hahaha

maganda ang ubusan ng load kapag.. ~~ free text peso thingy

nakaka-engganyo manood ng concert pag.. ~~ rak ang tugtig

masarap gumimik w/ friends pag.. ~~ me pera at libre ako

ok mag-share ng answer sa test kapag.. ~~ d ko lam sagot sa tanong...

masarap matulog sa mall kapag.. ~~ nasa me cr kame at u know wat..hahah

kakatakot mag-explore sa banyo ng school nyo kapag.. ~~ la ka kasama

ok mag-shop lifting kapag.. ~~ la ng law na nagbabawal sa kaimoralan

masarap kumain ng libre kapag.. ~~ me lason ito

masarap sumagot ng mga questions kapag.. ~~ bord ako

tangna kabored naman tong q and a shit na to..hahahah

wala lng share ko lng to.. kakatuwa e.. nabasa ko sa frendster..ahhahaha namimiss ko frneds ko sa states...hahahahahha

dazwafrenarfow!!!

And I never thought I'd feel this way And as far as I'm concerned I'm glad I got the chance to say That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away Well, then close your eyes and try to feel The way we do today And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me And now there's so much more I see And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart Well, then close your eyes and know These words are comin' from my heart And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining Knowing you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin' Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure 'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for For good times and for bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure That's what friends are for Keep smilin', keep shinin'

************************wentutan tym*******************************
ay sarap bumalik from a stressful shit i had this weekends..lolz well konti lng naman nangyare nun.. wento ko dito.. ahahaha

friday night..

pagkagaling me sa mall sa me big r para magpaswap ng sim un naggala gala nakakita ng old frends.. gawd namiss ko ung nakita ko.. si carla ilano.. gumanda na.. waaaaaaaah.. inaasar namen date ngaun sobwang ganda nya.. wahahahahaha tas pagkababa sa jip un bili ng merenda na crinkles.. tanga na lng ang di masarapan dun..ahahah tas nood ng tv til 9.. tas ang 1 peso thingy ko naganap na naman.. nagtext text ako samga custo at rewgs at sa mga frends na rin til 3.. e ang alis ng sasakyan namen papunta dun sa seminar sorta thingy namen e 430... so sabi ko sa srili ko kung tutulog pa ba me o hindi.. nakatulog me.. walanghya nagising me ng 5.. sobrang late... tangna talaga... so un naligo then alis ako bahay... tas tumwag si jo sakin... gusto makipagsop pero di ko pinagbigyan.. heller.. pupunta ko sa isang religious blah blah tas magjajackoff ako habang asa sasakyan.. ano ko sira.. sabi ko ill try to call nalang later pag vacant at nakahanap me cr..hahahhaa tas un nakarating kame by 7 sa place... kinda pagod.. syempre sino ba d mapapagod kapag di ka natulog sa loob ng 24 hrs na binigay sau para magpahinga.. tas gutom pa me that time.. nilamon ko ung tusino ni mama bago ko nagbabay.. binbili sana ko sa 711 ng tinapay pero d nalang.. kulang nga fucket money ko e bibili pa ko.. hahahah tas pagkababa.. register sa reg table... then punta sa room iwan mga gamit.. at un... naglakad lakad.. naghanap ng mapagkakaabalahan...hahahah nagpunta kame sa labas ng univ na pinuntahan namen.. nagpausok at un... balik din agad.. gusto me talaga kumain dat time kaso la ko tlaga ilalabas na pera.. kaya hinantay ko na lng maglunch...

pagkalunch nagsimula na ang mga festivitys.. nakakapagod pero ok lng, kahit la me ginwa kundi manood sa kanila..hahahah naglaro ng volleyball ang aking galbuddy at ung iba naman e nagsiaklasan at nagsipunta sa mga destinasyon nila kung saan saan.. marame nga palang delegates and pumunta in fernas... mahigit 6 na regions ng region 4 ang sumali sa semnar sorta thingy na un... so talagang puno... tas un natalo team ng cavite dun.. 3rd placer lang.. wahahahha pero nanalo naman sa basketball seniors no.. hahahaha tas ilang minuto pa sinimulan na ang banda, acoustica at dance compe.. hit ang ganda ng kinalabasan ng perfroramnce ng band namen sa cavite.. awit ng kabataan kinanta.. hayup ang lupet talaga.. hahahaha ung iba ang jojologs as usual...tas ung sa acoustica waaaaaaaah me naisip akong bigla.. sikwet kung sino... hahahhaha puro pangsenti tugtog.. tas twg pa ng twag mga kupal sa cell ko.. isotrbo talaga.. hahhaha tas ngakaplay din.. hahahhaha tas kainan ng dinner by 9... tas pumunta sa booth namen nagkakanta.. then.. by 10 nagsimula na ung party.. waaaaaaaaaaah puta angsaya saya... syempre ang party animala ano pa humataw.. waaah muntik na mabale katawan ko dun.. kakakembot kakaindayog..hahaha kakasigaw na itugtug ang two trick pony pero di me sinunod.. nagfuck u sign na lang ako.. bute ala masytadong elders dun.,. wahhahaha muntik na ko maghubad sa kakahataw.. wahahahah weve been there til 1.. tas tulog sa malamig na sahig... sumakit katawan ko sa ginaw ng place sobra.. sabi pa ng frend ko parang di daw nagbago posisyon ko simula ng matulog at magising ako.. sa tingi ko dahil sa lamig un.. hahahah sino ba amakakagalaw ng matino sa sobrang lamig.. hahaha tas naligo pa ko by 6... ang lamig ng tubig. ahahah parang tagubos ng tubig dali dali akong naligo kase tomguts na ko e... tas kumain nga kame ng longsilog tas lakad lakad ule.. nagsasayt seeing mga magaganda.. hahhaha tas nagsimba dun ng 8 ata.. tas me worship.. puro iyakan and all.. hahahaha ako gusto me umiyak kaso yoko dame tao e... hahahah tsaka iiyak lng ako apg me kumurot sa utong ko...hahaha nung apuwi me gusato me umiyalk di ko makakalimutan stay ko dun.. lalo na nung disco fev... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh sa april na ule ang sunod.. internatiuonal naman.. puro mga new species naman makikita ko..lolz un ang nagyare.. umuwo nako tas tulog magdamag.. muntik na ko lagnatin.. wel actually nadehydte ako..hahahhahahahha

FIN!!!!!!!!